lonely...

gah. i just want to let it all out. cry away my anger and hurt and sorrow and anguish and just....

please. everyone just let me be. i don't want to drag you into this pity party of mine. please, just leave me alone. it's only temporary, hopefully i'll get back up from it.

Why....

I'm crying. I don't even know why. Why are you doing this to me all of a sudden? Just the mere fact that you deleted me off of Facebook and now I'm crying like a weakling? What is wrong with me...

And I refuse to let you make me go through hell all over again.

It's Not All About You and Your Stupid Boyfriend

You know what? The freaking world doesn't revolve around you and your stupid boyfriend. I don't honestly don't give a fuck what is going on with you and him. Congrats, you get to see him more than I get to see my best friend. :O What?! He gave you roses?! HOW SWEET. (Cue the awwww) No, I'm not saying this to be nice or mean or whatever you want to call it, and no I'm not calling you out either. But sometimes you need to understand the certain boundaries. I have never been in a a relationship, and while I'm trying to be comfortable without a person in my life, you over here are gushing all about what you guys are going to do this weekend.

CAN'T YOU SEE THAT HE'S CHANGING YOU?! You're turning into something you're not. You're becoming something different. YOU NEED TO LOOK WITHIN YOURSELF AND FIGURE IT OUT. No one else can tell you this but yourself because you're the only one who can change you.

Anger Soothes the Wary Soul

Boys are stupid. Drama is overrated. I honestly don't care what you two were up to last night, I don't want to know. Affection kills the soft spot on my heart, I don't want to see it, I don't want to know about it. No, this is not about you. No, I'm not mad at you. Might as well answer the questions before they're asked. Just needed to let some things off my back, you may read one thing and think another. This is one of those things.

By the way, I want that statue. It could help soothe me when times are rough.

"God I want to dream again! Take me where I've never been! I wanna go there, this time I'm not scared! Now I am unbreakable! It's unmistakable! No one can touch me, nothing can stop me!"

(Untitled)

You walk alone on a crowded street,

Everyone's eyes you're afraid to meet.

You feel like they're talking about you and your fear,

Their hushed voices and snarls the only thing you hear.

Once at home, you plug in your headphones,

Trying to shut out their horrendous moans.

These paper thin walls hold nothing in,

And pretty soon your patience is wearing thin.

You slip on your black hoodie and run into the night,

With the full ominous moon your only light.

Through the dark forest is where you will go,

Hiding behind trees and trying to stay low.

Then you see your safe haven there,

And that is where you'll stay, in your homey lair.

Drenched in the loud silence that sets you free,

It's the only thing that saves you from insanity.

Dun Dun Dun...

PostSecret: Confessions on Life, Death and God from Frank Warren on Vimeo.

My heroes. Enough said. :)