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School is definitely taking its toll on me. I'm barely getting enough sleep, and I compensate for this lack by sleeping in class. For instance, I fell asleep in Anatomy during the video and in Euro, after we were done reviewing and were studying amongst ourselves. This is really terrible, seeing as how I'm going to go to sleep at 1:30 AM tonight. And I have my AP Euro test tomorrow! :O

I'm really scared, because even though I've been studying and I get the general gist of everything, I've gotta focus on my treaties and wars and the succession of kings and princes. This gets terribly confusing when there are 10 Henry's and like 20 Fredericks and Louis's and whatever else. I think these monarchs should be a little more original next time...

My New Obsession

I have recently redeveloped an obsession for these adorable little critters called Skelanimals. :)

They're "dead" animals, and they're simply amazing. They even have plushes and clothes, so yeah. I've gotta start saving up.

On another note, I finally found a vest at a really cool consignment shop called Plato's Closet. It was only 5 bucks, and it is in almost brand new condition so I'm super stoked. Watch out classmates, the azn is coming in an awesome vest!

Grimsley Coffeehouse!

My night was amazing. Ahhh, I love school functions that involve "good" music and friends. AND COFFEE. XD

Anyway, the opening act was amazing. EMPTY LOCKET SUPPORT THEM!

Yeah, so what if they're composed of my friends? Alex, Gabbie, and Mayu are one of the greatest non-rock acts out there. So what if today was the first time they've ever performed? The performance was amazing! I love the creative use of cello and piano set to the soft voice of our Japanese hero. :)

This fresh new act has much potential and they will surely become something fierce. "Hey, this review is biased!" you may say. Well then here: I'm going to give constructive criticism so it doesn't seem like all I do is praise them:

1. Maybe Mayu should remember her lyrics. XD

2. The piano part should be louder, or Gabbie's cello part a bit more subtle.

3. Mayu needs to incorporate dance moves! Get the crowd moving! :D (Bunny dance! XD)

4. To be continued...

Well, that's all folks!

Love Is Watching Someone Die

Every time I stare into your crystal blue eyes, I see a warm haven that I just want to crawl into and stay forever. Your soft brown hair embodies all my fears and chases all my demons away. Every time you envelop me in one of your hugs, I no longer feel as fragile and broken. Your kisses provide mixed emotions and hidden meanings that I can decipher instantly. Every time we hold hands and I rest my head on your shoulder, I know exactly where I want to be. Right here beside you, forever and always. Frozen together in time, never moving, never allowing nonexistent time to separate us. When I'm with you, it feels as if the universe revolves around us. It's as if we stand at the center of all knowing, believing everything but seeing nothing but each other.

SocialVibe that ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Yep yep. The end of another dreary weekend has arrived. But this one was different from the rest. How you may ask? Well... today, the 18th of October, a Sunday, these things happened:

1. My texting got renewed. :)

2. I BOUGHT ANOTHER PLAID SHIRT!

3. I bought another pair of skinny jeans!

4. I bought the cutest Hello Kitty shirt!

5. I had homework to do. :P

6. I... went to bed before 12! Or I'm going to...

Yep yep. :D These things make me very happy.

AND! I have one more request before I turn in for the night:

PLEASE JOIN SOCIALVIBE!

YOU GET A COOL PINK BALL!! :D

Thank you, and good night.

NO!

I hate it when people don't get the point and continue to pester you about something they already know the answer to.

THE ANSWER IS NO. NO I WILL NOT GO. NO I CAN'T GO. NO I DON'T WANT TO GO. So please stop bothering me about it. I would've liked to go if I was ALLOWED TO, but I'm not, so therefore I don't.

I LOVE YOU

Video says it all. <3

Love Is the Movement.

How can you love me when I am ugly? Guess I can only hope...

Yeah yeah. I know what is going to ensue because of this, you all are going to tell me this is all a lie and that I really am beautiful. Whatever. Psh. I have a hard time believing myself, what makes you think I can trust you?

Anyways, today has been a very uneventful, boring day. NOT. I was late for school, but my teacher loves me so much that I don't think I was counted late? Um... I FINALLY FIGURED OUT MY MATH EXTRA CREDIT!! WOOT W

OOT! Went to the IB meeting, urgh, they altered the requirements so now everything is harder?!??!?! GREAT.

Um.... Ben tried to get me to go to Homecoming for his and Mayu's sake, but I don't know... I'd rather find time to catch up on studying than go stand in t

he corner like some friendless loser. :P And

yeah, I also know this is true, coughGABBIEcough, but you wouldn't be able to drag me out of the dark where no one could see me so HA! MWAHAHAHAH! I'm an evil little azn, tee hee. :)

Anyways, I'm going to get off and actually try to start some of my endless studying.

SCREAMO GIRLS MAKE ME SMILE.

"You're wasting your time while your wasting away."

Hehe. I love A Day to Remember. Screamo bands make me very happy. :)

Anyways, my whole weekend has been very unproductive, considering how I still have a bunch of projects to do. :P

Anyways. I can't believe Grimsley lost. Again. They better win one football game against Page before I graduate, or I will be sorely pissed. XP

But yeah. Tee hee. I'm very hyper for some unknown reason. OH YEAH! I have one request: does anyone know how to put on headbands? Like so:

Yes. It's my favorite

singer agaiin. XD

Page SLUT Day

FRESH MEAT!!!

Today has been a very... interesting day.

Saw a lot of sluts walking around school. Quite a unique opportunity. Everywhere you looked, you could see prostitutes and hoes of all kinds roaming the halls. And that was just the girls. They guys were dressed up as nerds with high-waisted khaki shorts and thick glasses. And did I mention the pocket protectors?

Oh yes. It's that time of year again. Page Prep Day. Or should I take a risk and say Page Slut Day? Because that's certainly what it seemed like. Yes, the very old rivalry between Grimsley and Page has ensued its wrath upon us again. This time, we're supposed to mock the other school by portraying our belief of them. Oh, this wasn't a one sided fight though. Page has it's very own Grimsley Grit Day.

Now I have a simple question: What happened to the days when a school rivalry didn't matter that much and people wouldn't degrade themselves because of it, even if it was only for one day? I was absolutely shocked, but not horrified, at the number of girls who even OWNED that kind of clothing. Innocent looking girls sporting shorts beneath a very revealing men's button up shirt doesn't portray "smart" to me. In fact, it is the very epitome of WHORE. Come on guys. I understand it's Spirit Week, but some things just need to be left for th

e Halloween parties. Or need to stay at home.

What happened to dressing like this?

Above the Norm

"Dare to be above the norm. I dare you."

So I've decided to be different. I don't know how I'm going to do this, but I'm going to distance myself from the so-called "normal" people at school and start acting like a "freak." I'm curious to see where this will take me and it will throw some fun change into my life. :)

Yeah, this doesn't mean a totally NEW me. I'm just going to throw away all my insecurities and fall in love with my flaws. Focus on myself, and not what anyone else will think of me. It's sophomore year! I have to learn to start living a little. And I've already begun.

Today, I started working on some semi-collages that I put into my personal journal. They truly express what I feel about certain things. (Well, as best as pictures cut out a Seventeen magazine can. XP)

Yep. I am quite enjoying this diversity in my life, and I plan to keep it that way for a while. So don't be shocked. Just learn to live with it.

"Spill Ink Over the Blankness"

Something I was just "doodling" down. Check it out.

Walking through these dreary school halls,

I realize why my life is so lacking.

Wandering around the campus buildings,

I'm regarded as a ghost.

No identity to claim as my own,

Nobody to cling to, to call mine.

SO GIVE ME A SHOT OF ATTENTION!

Let it mingle with the half-awake alcohol of my mind.

Once I arrive home after a meaningless day,

I realize I have a hot date with the Chemistry book tonight.

Forever poring over useless texts and acting as a conjoined twin to my iPod,

I replay fantasies of me and some unknown entity.

Knowing within that my time will soon come, I still feel melancholy.

I want to be loved now, not have to wait till I'm 40 and desperate.

Being alone is a major despair of mine.

And try as I might, everyone else's happiness still looms over mine.

Without the support that I need, without that special one beside me,

I feel incomplete and struggle with a premature depression.

Empty promises hold no meaning to me anymore.

I forget how to smile, and only the sad lyrics embed themselves into my brain.

(*A NOTE: This poem is merely fictional and the result of me listening to sad breakup songs from my iPod. This is not to be taken seriously in ANY WAY. And yes, I know I have friends who will always love me and support me no matter what, and I thank you guys for that. :] Also, events that are going on around me also contributed to this. JUST A FOOTNOTE.*)

I have this immense crush on the girl in the above video.

She is amazing! And superbly hot. Sigh. :)

Yeah, nothing much is going on, except I have a vocab quiz for English, a Latin quiz for Anatomy, and a math test. ALL TOMORROW. I'm going to die. :P And a whole bunch of

chemistry stuff I don't understand.

But whatever. I'm trying to live through it all. Slowly.

Studying With My Wifey!

Today was a good day. Because I got to see my wifey and we got to vent to eachother about... nothing. Haha. I love Olya.

Umm... right now I'm "skype-ing" with my friends Mayu, Ben, and Gabs. And some stuff has just been revealed? Okay.... yeah. This conversation just took a weird turn.

Anyways, I do believe I'm going to start making friendship bracelets again. I still have quite a few friends who don't have one, and I also don't have one, so this will be my project for the next week. :)

Relationships?

Remember, we all stumble, every one of us. That's why it's a comfort to go hand in hand. ~Emily Kimbrough

This one's gonna be a short one.

Okay. So many of my friends are in relationships, have boy problems, or just got out of a tough relationship. And I'm there for those who are hurt or are having issues, and I'm happy for those who are in a healthy relationship. :)

But... I thought that I should put in a note about myself in this scenario. It may seem selfish of me, but whatever. Okay, so I've never been kissed. WOW! Shocker. Anyway, while everyone else is pursuing a relationship or looking for cute guys, I'm on the other side of that spectrum. I'm NOT looking for a relationship, and I'm NOT looking for a guy to spend my time with. I mean, that would be nice, but it's not a top priority of mine. Which most people understand. But I just thought I needed to put my thoughts out there.

P.S. I think I'm looking for a girl more than a guy at the moment.