Memories, oh they cut like knives.

School Is Stressful, But At Least I Don't Have To Worry About You Anymore.

I let go of a friend today. It hurts, but it's nothing that I won't heal from. It will be better for the both of us in the end. We just weren't working out, and I was hurting them more than any friendship ever should. It wasn't anything on purpose, just some emotions got in the way of us being friends and I made the conscious decision to let them go.

Lost In Stereo.

I Just Had To Get This Out There Before I Forget It

To Make Up For Last Week

I Know That As You're Reading This, You Realize Inside That It's About You.

Back: Front:

New Day. New Secrets.

My Secret Wall: Before and After

BEFORE: AFTER:

SECRETS EXPLOSION.

So I went on a treasure hunt and found a whole bunch of stuff bursting to break out. Knock yourselves out. On a second note, what are your opinions on me leaving my secrets for everyone to read? I feel like I'm exposing the most raw, intimate parts of my mind to the public, and I'm surely breaking down the walls that I so carefully built brick by boring brick. -sigh-

Another One. To Make Up For Lost Time.

This one is old, I've had it for a while, just never got around to post it.

My Dirty Little Gay Secret

You know what? These secrets have really helped me to discover who I really am on the inside. Yeah, okay, so maybe nobody really cares, but knowing that one person. JUST ONE PERSON out there is reading these makes me feel like everything I'm doing is actually worth it. Thanks guys.

paramore. tegan and sara. LOVE

soooooo. I haven't been updating stuff lately (except facebook), so I'm here to catch up. kinda. anyways, california was amazing. :] and after coming back, on friday, july 23, I went to the first show on the Honda Civic Tour in Raleigh. two words. EPIC. er wait, that's one. let me rephrase: EPIC EPICNESS. hehe. anyways, tegan and sara ARE AMAZING LIVE AND I'M TOTALLY OBSESSED NOW. harhar. and of course, paramore and my flame-headed role model hayley tore it up and stole the show. and I think a girl who was a couple rows in front of us stole my heart. o_o -sigh- oh how I wish I had had the guts to go up to her and say hey or something. I mean, who knows what would've happened?!?!? Now I've lost my chance and will more than likely never see her again. waaaah. I'm going to go drown in my sorrows now. p.s. a new secret will be up soon, I haven't had time to go on a treasure hunt of my mind lately so that is why there is nothing new up. sorry guys!

Brace yourself, for this is only the beginning.

Another week, another secret. Soon, I'll be on the other side of the US and you won't be able to see my secrets for -gasp- TWO WHOLE WEEKS. Or more precisely, fifteen days, but who's counting? :P

Secret Number Whatever.

Saw this picture at Urban Outfitters and instantly fell in love with it. Too bad I didn't think to check the price. Maybe I could've afforded it... Oh well. There's not a lot of room on my walls anyways. SO this is the first secret in a long while that isn't late! :D

QUICKIE SECRET!

Yes. I just took this guys. Like it? See how messy my room is? (Or the wall) This probably isn't a secret, because people who know me know of my obsession with things that go rawr. Including adorable dinosaurs. :]

Secret #7

Wow, who would've guessed I would've gotten to lucky number 7? Oh, nothing is lucky about this secret. Trust me. You might be better off not reading it.

Tired. Brain Dead. How are you doing?

Hey guys. It's another Sunday, which means another secret. I've been really busy with studying for finals and whatnot, so don't expect any life-altering secrets anytime soon. Urm... Enjoy!! :D

LATE. ONCE AGAIN.

Late again. Sigh. SORRY. This one I did in a hurry because I didn't have much time to think. But I promise, I'll have a very good one for you guys next time. :)

Sorry I'm late!!! I have been really busy with end of school stuff and projects, studying for finals, and whatever else is going on. Here's one I had in my pocket for a while, but never got around to taking a picture for it. :) ENJOY!

I'm Gonna Give All My Secrets Away

Hello people! It is again another Saturday, meaning TIME FOR ANOTHER SECRET! :D Enjoy. :]

Secreto Numero Dos

"I wish I could tell people that I was attracted to girls and boys and not get the feeling they were secretly judging me." Hello faithful followers. Here ya go, secret number two. Indulge yourselves boys and girls. Read into it, read it, love it, hate it, cry about it. I don't care, just enjoy the glimpse into my thoughts. :D

Can we pretend the airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? I could really use a wish right now.

So I decided that this blog will not only be a blog where you can find out what's happening in my life, but I got the idea to post a new secret of mine once a week. :O Yes, it's going to be like a rip off of PostSecret, but seeing as how most of my secrets won't get posted on the blog, I'm going to post them here. I may send them in or not, but for now I think I'm keeping them all. Who knows, maybe this will get as famous as his. ;) THANK YOU JOHN FOR THE IDEA! :D Okay, short blog about this weekend. Yesterday, my sister had a benefit concert with her Youth Strings group. It was really good, especially the gospel at the end! :D AMAZING! Uhhhh... today I got new shades. BLUE AND BLACK BAYBEH! haha. Yeah, I'll update this later if I have time. CIAO!

I Don't Want to Part With You, But I Know I Need to Release You

Today was a very depressing day. So I got locked out of New Science, where my locker is. This happened after school, where I decided to stay after for some math tutoring. I figured I could get to my locker afterwards, that way I wouldn't have to go back and forth since my 6th period is math. Little did I know that the doors would be LOCKED. Gah, it frustrated me to my breaking point. It was Friday, and I was stuck at school. :( I feel so weak admitting this, but I almost cried. :/ So I went to the front office after asking a couple of teachers for help. I had the lady page someone to come help me open the door, since the janitor I asked didn't have a key. :/ Goodness. Mrs. Neal. SUCH A BEEYOTCH. So is it MY FAULT that I can't get to my locker? She acted like it was all my fault or that I was wasting her time or something. What is up with these teachers? The librarian is the same way. Bitches. :P She gave me this glare and was sighing and whatever, and after she paged the guy and I thanked her nicely (while resisting the urge to jump over the desk and punch her in the face) she gave me a stern look and said coldly, "GO." D: I hate the faculty at my staff. Remind me to never come to any of my reunions. It's things like this that make me feel so vulnerable and lonely. (Great, I'm about to cry again.) Speaking of lonely, I'm about to reveal something to you guys, my faithful reader(s). It's something I'm sending to PostSecret. (Thank you again Ben for the book! I love it!) Enjoy, and give me your thoughts? Kay, gotta get to bed. It's almost 2... -____-

Scrabble?

TODAY. In Ms. Adams class I found a Scrabble piece with the letter 'I' on it. When I got home, I came up with the INGENIOUS idea to put two words on the back. Now it has one of life's simplest, yet most complex, messages on it. "I love you.

RAMBLING RAMBLING RAMBLING

"I don't wanna hold you back now love." I just absolutely LOVE Evanescence. :DD One of the most ingenious bands evaaaah!!! So I'm sitting here in Friendly's Barnes & Noble, doing my Anatomy homework, when I thought to myself, "Hey! Why don't I write on my blog? Since I haven't in so long." And So here I am, writing a new post. :D Did ya miss me?!! Hum hum diddly dum. SO BORED. D: Oh well, at least today is Friday. AND THEN. THE WEEKEND. FORREALS. :] So our AP Euro exam is coming up, and I'm very, very, very, VERY, scared. But... I think if I take it with the right attitude, I'll succeed. And hopefully pass. -crosses fingers- Another question: Does anyone know why the formatting of my posts is all screwed up? There should be a bunch of skipped lines but Blogspot just jumbles everything together... making it harder to read. -_____- Meh. :P OOOH!!! For our AP Euro final exam (for the actual class), Mrs. Martineau is letting us make our own little project thing. She didn't explain it with much detail, but she did say that it can be on ANYTHING that pertains to European History. :D I already have an idea of what I want to do. :) Do you wanna know?! Well I'm telling you anyway. :) Soooooooo. I'm going to make a mini-movie sorta thing. Part of it will be stop motion and the rest will be legit video clips. I was thinking I could do a battle scene, and for the stop motion I would show where the different invasions and what not. As in, buy little army men and put them on a map and move them around. I do believe it is quite ingenious. :) So I'm very proud. Now, to actually do it... URGH. Oh well. Planning is done. NOW ON TO THE ACTION! WHOOOO! :DD Hopefully no one steals my idea... Okie dokie my faithful readers. Ta-ta, Azn has to get back to her homework before her parents bust a cap because she is staying up late (yet again) on Sunday night trying to finish everything. Good bye my loves!! <333

I Build You Up Just to Break You Down

Dang. Third quarter is ending tomorrow, and after that is... FREEDOM! For about 10 days, haha. SO EXCITED!!! Well now, I know I haven't been very consistent with my blogging but it's pretty hard. :P What with all my school work and such. Okay, time to talk about meaningful things. On my formspring, people keep asking me if I'm bi. The answer is YES. I am. But that doesn't change anything, does it? Am I different in your eyes now? If so, then that's a shame. Just because I like boys AND girls doesn't mean anything. You're pretty much being racist, but instead of skin color, sexual preference is now the victim of your sadistic games. Sorry, I just had to let that out there. I hate all the people who are like "I hate fags" or "Gay people should go die", because quite honestly, we are no different than you guys. And you wanna know why I don't let everyone know that I'm bi? It's because you don't go around telling everyone you're straight. So just because I'm different like that doesn't mean you can poke fun at me and call me names. It's just not right. Now I have to study for my Chemistry test and Anatomy test and review my vocab words. I love how teachers pile on the work days before Spring Break. D:

Break Time!

So... I have this stupid AP Euro project that I have to do. And it's totally killing my weekend. Murdering it, in fact. D: I wish school was over with. :[ Then I wouldn't have to deal with all this silly work, haha. :P On another note, I really hope a certain someone doesn't read this because if they do, then all will fail and I'll be sad. -sad face- Sigh, so we finally talked, even if it was briefly. But she's leaving Grimsley, and that makes me so incredibly sad. Waaaah. BUT!!! Thank you to my lovely friend KAT!!! If it weren't for her, I wouldn't have gotten this far, heehee. :DD Now, on that note, I must leave, but I do not bid farewell. For I SHALL BE BACK!!! MWAHAHAH! <33

Today was my birthday party. :) I had lots of fun with my best friends Gabbie, Disa, and Olya. We went bowling, ate at East Coast Wings, devoured chocolate fondue, and took MANY PICTURES. All in all, today was an amazing day that DEFINITELY made up for yesterday. I got 20 bucks from Disa, a heart-warming letter from Olya, and a wax seal, sealing wax, and blank cards from Gabbie. :D I LOVED MY PRESENTS! But of course, today had its fair share of drama. Gabbie's boyfriend, Austin, kind of got mad at me and Olya. Gabbie was texting him a lot while we were bowling, and so I told him to let us be because we were having a "girls' night". And it was, with the exception of my cousin, Henry. But of course, it was revealed that Henry, a boy, was there. And then Austin accuses me of lying to him?! WTF. And multiple accusations arose. Sigh. Oh well, I didn't let it get to me that much, and I FRANKLY DO NOT CARE. SO ha. :)

Not a happy ending to a sucky day.

I'm sitting here in this Starbucks, pouring my thoughts out to the world. Talk about stereotypical abstract, haha. But yes, Ben (thank you!) reminded me of this little thing called MY BLOG, and so I've decided to add more entries.

If you feel offended in any way by what I have to say, well then, GET THE F*** OFF MY PAGE. D:<

But yes. On to the juiciness of my thoughts. :) Today was the Regional Science Olympiad competition, and IT SUCKED @$$. Let's just say it like that. So I don't get flagged and then blocked. XD

I worked my butt off for both of my events, Forensics and Anatomy, and I didn't win ONE award. I was so pissed off. And to top it all off, something dramatically naive and selfish happened today, which I'd rather not speak of. But some of you guys should know what I'm talking about. D: It JUST PISSES ME OFF TO KNOW THAT THEY WOULD PUT THEMSELVES IN THE PALMS OF DEJA VU. Rawr.

People are stupid and they will NEVER learn from their mistakes, from what I've seen. I don't care how much has changed, you're still just setting yourself up to get hurt. IN THE LONG RUN or near future. Whichever comes first.

Sigh, people never listen to me. But in the end I get to say, I TOLD YOU SO. So ha.